was that really a date?

I’ve got to quit doing this. Again it’s been a week since my last entry and I don’t feel good about it. The week has been crazy though but that is excuse.

Had a great weekend though. Some friends were in town from Atlanta that I haven’t seen since my move. So we ended up going out for sushi with Tricia, the boys Brian and Colin, and their wives, Kristin and Erika. The sushi was awesome and we had a great conversation. I had told Tricia how cute these straight boys were and how nice they are and she definitely concurred.

On Saturday I went to breakfast with Tony as Damon had to work. We met Tricia at the Abbey for food and mimosa’s. Tony and I proceeded to do a little window shopping, which is all it amounted to because I couldn’t find anything and he’s not supposed to be shopping. We had a great time. He is such a crackup. I had a date that night that I was all excited for and was trying to find a shirt to wear but to no avail. Tony dropped me off and I did a few chores around the house and then got ready for my date. Now I’ve been thinking about this guy for awhile now and can’t seem to get him out of my head. Mr. Doggy Day Care (DDC) himself. For those that might not know the stats are 6’5”, light brown curly hair, a nice strong athletic body, not a great ass but it will do. He used to be a track star in college and is a cyclist. So anyway I pick him up and actually brought him a pair of shoes from my company which he immediately put on and decided to wear that evening. His outfit wasn’t to die for but he’s so damn handsome I figure I can work on that later.

So we head out to the party with him following me. Ok, that was my first mistake. Anyway, we get to the party and I introduce him around. Meredy and Fritz have thrown a great holiday party. Great food, interesting guests, and plenty to drink. So DDC hangs out for quite awhile but he had mentioned he couldn’t stay very late because he gets tired early. Ok second mistake. So he decides to leave, I walk him out and get a little smooch but not what I was hoping for. We talked briefly about his status and that he is not looking for boyfriend just looking for hookups at the moment. Ok third mistake. Why do I put myself through this shit. I’ve decided that I need to just let him know how I feel and see what he says. Hell I’m getting to old to bullshit and it’s doing me no good at all. To be honest I thought once I came out my life would change. I haven’t been out all that long, and yes I know my friends have always known, but people have to do things in their own time and it took me a little bit longer. Another story another entry. But I have decided to just come clean with him and see what he says. If for nothing else I would have met a great guy who’s a great friend and just leave it at that.

So he left the party at 11pm and I stayed until 3:30am. I had a blast and the whole gang was there. I’d love to list them but there was just too many of them. Anyway, I have to give a shout out to both Bora and Jenny Lin for showing up late and staying even later. You both rock! Sunday came and I was very hung over and decided to lay on the couch and chill.

home sick

i'm home sick. not homesick, just at home and feeling sick. our company sales meeting started last thursday through sunday and i think i'm just spent. after getting everything ready and checking it a million times, this is one party i wish i could've missed. first we had to show up bright and early to put binders together. now this is supposed to be a team effort type deal and of course the "usuals" were late. by "usuals" i mean, they usually drive you nuts because they don't do a damn thing. show up late, and then take their sweet time to get started. so we're trying to get the sales binders together. basically, the catalogs, updates, etc etc etc, are placed on six foot tables in the order that they are to be put in the binder. you take one from each stack in correct order and then place in front of the three ring binder folks for them to place in the binders. so this one jackass that doesn't do a damn thing at work anyway shows up late and starts fiddling with his ipod. after he gets just the right tune he decides to look through the catalog. this would be fine if nothing was going on, but he's doing all of this right in the way of those of us trying to finish this damn project. finally he gets into the line to help, but he's moving so slow people start passing him. i swear, i wish i would've smacked him in his head and said wake the fuck up. but aside from jackass we finished the binders and proceeded to the next step.

now mind you, i've been preparing for weeks for this meeting. i also had to give 8 presentations. 2 the first night and 6 more the next day. the first one didn't go so hot, as i was handed the info that i was to speak on the day before. it wasn't that it was bad or anything, i just didn't give it the wow factor because i wasn't as familiar with the product yet. but my next one was great, or so i was told. i was funny, witty, and knowledgeable. thank the lord because i don't know if i could've handled another flop. the next day i had to give the same presentation over and over 6 times, which went very well but giving the same presentation 6 times gets a little stale. and throughout this entire process i had to wine and dine the sales group each night and meet with them at breakfast and lunch as well. now i don't mind the wining and dining part usually but when you have to present and be at the top of your game, the wining part is not so good. i did survive however and i think they are please with my performance and view of the future.

but now i'm home sick for the second day with a chest cold and sore throat, and run down and trying to work from home. i think it's time for a little nap.